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Hi. I'm Micca.

9/29/09 - And so I decided to revive this blog because I need a place to vent about my random (or not so random) problems in life.

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Inconsequential.

Posted on: Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Posted at: 21:27

A rant.

Because I need to.

So what would you do if you feel.. insignificant? Unimportant? What if you feel like you're not given enough worth compared to someone you care about? A friend? A very good friend? And what if the person you think is doing the comparing is also a friend?

I feel that I'm just not.. enough.

Perhaps I'm blowing things out of proportions, but I feel so goddamn unimportant compared to someone I care about. And to be honest, I'm jealous. I'm downright jealous of that person.

Is that so bad? I feel horrible about it. I know I shouldn't be jealous but yet I am. It's like their life is perfect, but yet it isn't. I know it isn't. .. and maybe that's what makes it even more perfect? It's perfect because it's not. A perfect imperfection. What an oxymoron.

And so I've come to realize that I'm being a bad friend. For feeling like this and for thinking like this. I shouldn't be jealous. I should be accepting of the fact that perhaps in someone's eyes, I'm just not as important as another.

But it hurts, you know?

Especially if that person.. if both people are important to you.

There, I've accepted it.

And now I just have to get over it.

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I'm Micca. I like to read. A lot. I have an obsession with books that is really quite scary. I like to sing. Karaoke is life. You'll catch me doing something weird, most likely. I am ridiculously talkative. You can't get me to shut up, literally. I'm a nerd; proud to admit it. I like clothes and shoes. I think that Robert Langon is an amazingly sexy 40 year old. Yes, I know that he is not real. I have a stong opinion. I live to argue. I'm very moody. Catch me in a wrong time and I'll snap at you.

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