Aeipathy

Inconsequential.

2009-09-29T21:27:00.004-04:00

A rant.

Because I need to.

So what would you do if you feel.. insignificant? Unimportant? What if you feel like you're not given enough worth compared to someone you care about? A friend? A very good friend? And what if the person you think is doing the comparing is also a friend?

I feel that I'm just not.. enough.

Perhaps I'm blowing things out of proportions, but I feel so goddamn unimportant compared to someone I care about. And to be honest, I'm jealous. I'm downright jealous of that person.

Is that so bad? I feel horrible about it. I know I shouldn't be jealous but yet I am. It's like their life is perfect, but yet it isn't. I know it isn't. .. and maybe that's what makes it even more perfect? It's perfect because it's not. A perfect imperfection. What an oxymoron.

And so I've come to realize that I'm being a bad friend. For feeling like this and for thinking like this. I shouldn't be jealous. I should be accepting of the fact that perhaps in someone's eyes, I'm just not as important as another.

But it hurts, you know?

Especially if that person.. if both people are important to you.

There, I've accepted it.

And now I just have to get over it.

haircut!~

2009-01-03T16:15:00.002-05:00

"If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it."
- Mary Engelbreit

New Year means new haaaaaair. Yeahbby!
Finally. I hated my hair before, but now I love it.

happy new year's eve!

2008-12-31T12:14:00.002-05:00

"An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves."

- Bill Vaughan

Is it just me or did this year pass by so fast?! Wow. I'm still remembering all the things that had happened last year and then suddenly bam, it's the New Year already! Just watch, I'll still be writing "2008" when we go back to school. ;~;

ANYWAYS; as much of a supposedly stressful day New Year's is supposed to be, for me, it's not. O_O New Year's party later on tonight, and my parents plus my grandma have been cooking/cleaning nonstop.

I have no New Year's Eve resolutions, I think. I mean, I'd rather just let the New Year's decide on what will happen ~ I don't want to be stressed out trying to accomplish my resolution. But whatever, I just hope this New Year will be better than the rest.

Three more years until the world ends. LOL. XD

Happy Christmas.

2008-12-25T16:42:00.002-05:00

"Christmas, children, is not a date. It is a state of mind."

- Mary Ellen Chase

Happy Christmas guys. :* And so the time of the year we were all waiting for has passed, again. Why is it that we all spend so much energy during the days building up to Christmas? There's all the hype and commotion... why can't it be like that towards any day and not just Christmas? idk.

So anyways, last night was Christmas Eve. Had a family party and then midnight mass afterwards. I wanted to stay up all morning, but no. No one was online to keep me company. Darn you guys. ♥

Opened presents earlier this morning. My parents definitely surprised me. I got some clothes, gift checks, a board game (xD), a digital photo album, and some other things I cannot remember. o-o But my parents, on the other hand, went extra in my opinion. xD They gave me $500 to start my own bank account. Gosh I love them. ;3

Presents ~

2008-12-23T17:09:00.005-05:00

"If instead of a gem, or even a flower, we should cast the gift of a loving thought into the heart of a friend, that would be giving as the angels give."
- George MacDonald

Merry almost christmas. ;3 I tried to draw the presents, just like I know some of you guys did by stalking your blogs. ( ; Here they are.

I really tried my best drawing these. o-o And not all of them came out as well as I hope they would. -cringes- I eyeballed them ~ original pictures shall be posted at the very bottom. Don't mind the sketchiness. We all know I can't draw a straight line. :* Hope you like. <3> And I hope that you recognize them, lololol. ;3

Drag the icons to the address bar for full size.

Originals

Something's wrong with me.

2008-12-22T10:37:00.003-05:00

"Dreams are illustrations... from the book your soul is writing about you."

- Marsha Norman

So I had yet another dream. It wasn't as weird as those before, definitely no sharpening chainsaws, but it's up there. xD

All I could remember from it was this big, gigantic room. And I think that there are stairs inside the room leading up to this balcony-like floor in the room. So anyways, we were having a sleep over of five people - me and four others. All I could remember was the face of one person whom I will not mention. ;3 There were two boys, three girls - one being me. Anyways, we were stargazing because there was a glass roof. o-o

I remember looking up and seeing this... big brown branch above me. And I was like "What the hell is that?" Apparently, I'm looking up to a mirror and there was a branch right next to me.. How it got there, I have no idea. o-o

All of a sudden, these weird animals popped out of nowhere. I remember one was really fury with big ears. So, we started chasing these animals all over the room, when suddenly, the door opened. :O Dun dun duuuuuuun...

And in came Ms. Nadal. LOL yes, Miss Nadal. She was yelling at us for being loud, and then she slammed the door.. and walked away.

The end. D:

If that dream was supposed to show something about me, I have no idea what it is.

Blockbuster

2008-12-21T18:43:00.007-05:00

"No one does somethin' for nothin'."

- Rock, Take the Lead.

And so last night, at around 8pm, I finally watched Twilight the movie. Surprising huh? I mean, it's been like what? A month since it has been released? While I had doubts with the actors that sounded like they have a Scottish accent, it's an okay movie. Not the best, definitely, and it really does not hold a candle to the book.

James was definitely my favourite character. The full 10 minutes he was on screen, I could not keep my eyes off of him. He was amazing and that was exactly how I pictured him to be. The whole flying crap that happened in the ballerina studio didn't even bother me that much. xD Jasper was my second favourite character. He was so perfect. I loved his angst.

And just 10 minutes ago, I finished watching Take the Lead starring Antonio Banderas. Oh gosh. It was freaking beyond awesome. I loved the whole thing. Earlier I was complaining how I didn't get to finish watching the movie in gym class because of the snow day but I made up from that by renting the movie instead. xD It's amazing. Definitely a worthwhile watch.

I have a feeling that all throughout this break, all I'll be doing is reading and watching movies...

Introducing: Valia

2008-12-20T07:53:00.004-05:00

"Temper is a weapon we hold by the blade."

- James Matthew Barrie

So I decided to make a new character.

Her name's Valia. ;3

She won't be a major character like Cyan, Skyler and the others, but I will definitely find some place to put her in the future.

I'm thinking that she could be Skyler's secret admirer, but sadly; Skyler just doesn't see her that way. :(

She's temperemental, hence the quote, and she's a bookworm, hence the glasses. ;D

I think I can relate to Valia. o-o Because we all know that I have a tempter too, even if I don't show it. ;3 She's quiet though, but gosh, if you piss her off, look out.

I'm crazy for waking up at 6 am in the morning. But my mom made me. :(

My hair is fully brown/black now, no more highlights!

Chyyeaaah. ;D

Valia's last name, unknown at the moment. x_x

I can't think of any right now.

BAM.

2008-12-19T12:40:00.004-05:00

"So comes snow after fire, and even dragons have their ending."
- J.R.R Tolkien

IT'S SNOWING! Lol.
Banana got her wish.
I won't be seeing you guys for two weeks!
Phew, a break.
Keeeeds. <3
Because of the snow day, I couldn't finish two movies we were watching in class. The horror D: The first was The View from the Top and the second was Take the Lead. Stupid snow day. I wanted to finish the two movies since they were freaking awesome. D:

For History, I brought in Michael J Fox's Back to the Future, the first DVD. But gosh, now I think I'm obsessed. D: I have to ask my dad to rent two and three for me soontimes.

So, that's Skyler Noah. Isn't he sexy? Gosh, I could eat him for breakfast.
But, just imagine that he's not smiling.
Because he's angsty. Like Harry Potter. ;3
Imagine that he has an earring on his left ear too. ;3
Idk yet, but I think he has mind powers. Hopefully.
He's an orphan. He worked so that he could go to the school.
And he can jump walls. lmfao.

Let's jump onto the bandwagon!

2008-12-10T17:01:00.000-05:00

And so I was peer pressured - cough - into making a blog.

She has it, she has it, he has it.. so why shouldn't I?

I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.

Totally.

I've never kept a blog before.

Well, no, that's a lie. :O

But I really want to make this one work.